a moment of intense brutality.
Selim was still awake, waiting for her in bed.
“Do you want to talk about it?” he asked.
She shook her head, climbing into bed on the opposite side. She tried to take up as little room as possible, making herself linear along the edge of the mattress, lying on her side with her back to him. He touched her shoulder and she flinched.
“Hey,” he said softly, stroking her damp hair. “I’m sorry.”
When she turned to him her eyes were shiny with tears. “Sorry? Sorry? Of course you’re sorry. It’s all over now, you’ll have your money in the morning. It’s easy for you to be sorry.”
“I never meant–”
“What did you think was going to happen in there? When I went with him? We were going to play checkers? Talk about the weather?”
“It was the only thing–”
“Do you want me to tell you what we did?”
“Please don’t.” She could see genuine pain behind his eyes. He was proud; it would ruin him to visualize it.
“Why? I had to do it. You made me. Don’t you want to know what you made me do? For your precious five million Euros?” She was sitting up perfectly straight, seething now, teeth bared. Still he shook his head no. She could hardly bear to think of it again, she didn’t want to say the words, to relive it all in her retelling, but she wanted him to suffer. She wanted him to feel as awful as she did. “First, I just had to watch them. I watched the girl undress him and call him ‘daddy’ and suck his dick, and then he fucked me, doggy style, and I’ll never get that sound out of my head. He made me jerk him off so he could come on her fake tits, and she made this show out of eating it, licking her fingers, all, ‘daddy, daddy’ again. Next he had her eat me, he had her go at it until he was good and hard again, and then he made me ride him. He finished by sticking his dick down my throat, making me gag as he came, and I could barely breathe.” She was shaking, and the color had drained from Selim’s face.
“I never thought–” he stammered.
“You sold me. Because you’re too fucking proud to walk away, because you’re too fucking greedy. I hope it was worth it.” She rolled over onto her side again.
She woke up early the next morning, slipped out of bed, and wheeled her small suitcase out of the suite. She took one last look at the strand of diamonds coiled on the nightstand before she closed the door quietly behind her. There was an early train to Milan, and she made sure she was on it.